Be More.

It has been far to long since I’ve posted on here. 2019 is going to be a much different year. Over the past few weeks I’ve wanted to post so many different things on there but couldn’t bring myself to post the hard hitting and deep things that were running through my mind. As much as I want to be ready to completely open up and let everything out, I’m just not ready yet. But I am getting there and this is a the start…

Today I want to talk about some things that have shifted my mindset moving into 2019. As i mentioned already 2019 is going to be a much different year for me because I am making 2019 all about ME. Things are already in the works to make 2019 the most successful year Needs More Sticker has ever had. However, next year will be more than that. I am focusing on my mental health, taking my life back and getting it pointed in the direction I feel it needs to go. Over the past few years I’ve tried to get away from the “I” mentality focusing more on my friends and helping others but that is over. I am not saying that I am giving up on my friends or other people (the three of you that are reading this, don’t worry I’m not going to drop off the face of the earth and stop responding to texts) but I am going to find more ways that while being with my friends it helps ME.

Something a lot of people don’t know about me is that I battle depression. I have my ups and downs just like everyone but they are far more extreme. I can be excited and super happy when I leave work at night and by the time I get home (roughly 20 minutes) one thought, one song on the radio can change everything and send me spiraling. The holidays are usually a very difficult time for me with this drastic up and down cycle which is why the timing for this is important. This is only something I have shared with a few very close friends so it may come to a shock to many as on the outside I really push to show a happy and content attitude. I first reached out for counseling my sophomore year of college (2011). My grades were terrible (I spent the entire year on academic probation, yea that bad), I was always tired and never wanted to go to class or do anything other than go home and be with my friends. After just a few weeks it was very clear that my depression was routing in my deep relationships that I had created with my close friends and not being able to be with them on a daily basis. I’ve never been a super outgoing person so making new friends at college wasn’t that easy and I feel added to my depression. While it has been a long time since this diagnosis and my life is nothing what it was back then I have noticed myself falling back into this cycle. This is the reason I am going to be focusing on myself. I need to learn how to press on, grow and become a person that I want to be. While my friends are the most important thing to me and always will be, I need to find my true happiness doing what I love and living a truly fulfilling life.

This is the early start to 2019;

BEING a better person
EXPANDING my knowledge

MAKING an impact on the world
OPPORTUNITIES to grow
RENEWED belief in myself
EXPLORING the world

BE MORE.

-Jason 😀🤣