It has been a week...
It has been a week…. After having one of the worst anxiety attacks I’ve had in a long time last night I knew something had to change. While this wasn’t a snap of my fingers and make it happen moment, it was finally the turning point. I’ve been in the dumps for a few months now and knew I needed to make some changes. The way I was going about my day to day life was not sustainable. But as some will say until you finally hit rock bottom you don’t truly realize that you need to change.
The one thing that got me through last night was thinking back to what a year it has been. This has been one of my worst up and down years but overall there was one thing that kept me grounded. At the beginning of this year I told myself that no matter what happened this year that it was going to be about me. That I was going to focus on myself and make myself a better person. In almost every aspect of my life except for one I did not follow through with this. The one thing that kept me grounded all year, the one thing I have never wavered from, the one thing that no matter how sick I was or how depressed I felt I always followed through with. Working out every morning. This was my time to refocus each morning. Forget about everything else going on in my life and the world and create a better Jason.
The thought of this achievement has been on my mind for a few weeks but last night is when it finally hit me. Last year there was one huge moment for me when we started to create video content at work. I was super excited to be able to teach people about the products that I am so passionate about. But once the first YouTube video was uploaded, every time I watched it I could only focus on one thing, Me. I saw a version of myself that I was not happy with, I was overweight, unkept and unhappy. (This is the first photo below in the gray shirt) That was the turning point for me to get my act together. Since that day I’ve been in the gym at least 5 days a week for 90% of the year. whether it be sickness or traveling for work nothing has kept me out of the gym. A few weeks ago we shot some more videos and it was finally realized that I had not totally wasted this entire year. (Second photo in the black shirt) While many of the aspects of bettering myself did not get completed or sadly even started this year, one thing was accomplished. And that is where the age old quote of “quality over quantity” comes into play. When I look back at this past year there are so many things that did not go right, that I did not accomplish, that I will never get back. But life is what you make it. So I turned my focus to the positives. The 35 pounds I lost, the fact that I had to buy new cloths because nothing I owned this time last year still fit, the amazing places I’ve had the opportunity to travel to this year, the new friends I’ve made and the friendships that have grown even stronger. These are the things to focus and dwell on, not the negatives. That is where things are going to progress moving forward. It’s time to really kick back into action, get myself back on track with the life I want to live. I need to move on from the life I had always dreamed of growing up, being married and having a family by 25. Yes, somehow at 28 I still believe that it is still a possibility (I know time travel doesn’t exist, but you never know). Its time to figure out the life I want now, the life that is right for me, the life that will bring me endless fulfillment and joy. Here’s to my second shot at my motto for the year to BE MORE.
-Jason 😀🤣
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https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7Mff930nAAdeaBJgHVBLnQ
